Its Been 5 Years Already!!! Omg!!

Heyyyy bloggers its been 4EVA since i last been on this website i mean like 5 years 4 EVA lol. anywho its been 5 years since i last been on this and A HELL OF A WHOLE LOT has changed since my last blog ;) to start off i graduated high school (YAY!!) im in college currently going for my general studies associates =]. Got a car, have 2 dogs(Max and Lucky) and a cat (Misti G Fluffy Paws) <---- 21="" a="" also="" and="" awesome="" back="" been="" break="" currently="" experiences="" font="" going="" im="" in="" just="" life="" load="" march="" name="" of="" right="" shit="" size="2" through="" turned="" up="[">Which really sucks btw) lol. But besides that im really excited to be back on blogger =] i was reading my old blogs and was just laughing at how innocent and quirky i was back then lol. i mean i still am that same goofy girl but just a more mature version ;) Soooo lets start with how my day went today, i got up walked my dogs got ready for the day and went to my best friends house which is Daniris, i've mentioned her before in my previous blogs and honestly i can actually say that she is my only real friend that i have left.(Can't say much for others) but anywayz went to her casa and (btw she's a proud mommy now with a beautiful little girl) ;) had hamburgers for lunch, (Which were very scrumptious lol)  then went on a long drive to pick up her mother up from work. and when i say long drive i mean we purposely drove wherever our hearts desired and ended up gps-ing our way back to her mother's job lol. i love the things we do we always want to have an adventure lol but anyway did that picked up her madre got back to her house and started cooking dinner for everyone ;) (Yes im a little chef now lol) so we made stuffed peppers which turned out oh so very Awsum and just chilled in the room watched this show that she likes called mystery diners (which i think is very scripted lol) and relaxed =] today was a very casual day for us. You see Daniris has been helping me get over this breakup that im going through right now. She has done so much for me since i got back in worcester and continues to and i love her for that. she really is a (hannah montana voice) true-ue-ue-ue-friend lol so ive been hanging with her this whole week and we've been having just the best of times but any who im going through a break up right now and its very hard to deal with. He was the man of my dreams the cotton to my candy, the milk to my cereal, just overall the guy that i always wanted. but sadly 23 days ago (omg it been 23 days and it feels like 4 ever) i was living with this guy and our love was honestly the best love i have ever experienced so far. and it kills me that we arent together anymore but i wont get too into that because i'll never stop and then this blog will turn into a diary lol. but anyway long story short i was with him and now im not and it sucks BIG TIME. So now im taking this in day by day and i will admit it has gotten a little easier.... but it still sucks=[ besides that right now its 2:15am and im starting to get a little sleepy 0_o so its been 5 years since i been on this and i cant really write everything down in this 1 blog so there's gonna be more to come but as of right now i shall be back tomorrow =]

Esmarlin Out!!!! ;)

(its been forever since i said that lol )

Darlanne

Lets see what i can say about my dear cousin Darlanne. hmmmm OK so shes literally the only person i can act my self around theres never an awkward moment with her sometimes shes a little to kind,sappy,and Charitable but most of the time we get along like turkey and gravy : ) but recently she hasn't been including me in her plans like she use to and its really sorta starting to bother me but BEFORE i go on about this let me just say that i am and will never ever be how her Pre EX WIFE was acting i just don't want us to drift away from each other like me and a certain someone have so sure Ive been on her a little too much but hey i'm just trying to save our relationship.but yea sometimes she and i don't really see eye to eye but she never really likes to admit it witch sometimes pisses me off : ( like when i ask her if she wants to come over my house and this is all the time she always says "oh i don't think they will let me" and as in they she means her parents-_- i'm mean get real your 16 about to be 17 years old and your parents still wont let you sleep over someones house and by someone i'm mean her cousin!? ughh w/e Right now shes bowling BOWLING!!! and she couldn't of invited me out of all people i should have been the first one on speed dial if i'm as she says her "sister if anything" but nope she didn't so now in stuck home babysitting my rug-rats of niece.it just really bothers me that shes bowling with god knows who instead of with me.but the one thing that gets me the most is when she does her little eye-rolling thing to me and only me oh and even better she doesn't pick up when i call her i have to try like a million times before she does and if she picks up she usually tells me to text her just like she did now because shes to busy having fun bowling while i'm here in jail babysitting ughh i just don't know anymore maybe our time in VA didn't mean anything to her but as much as i don't show it I really do love her. and i really liked my time with her but my time with my fabu little cousin Sharry while we were in Va and sure we got into fights(most of them caused by her)but that time was THE best time i had with her and sharry but whatever all that is just rubbish now so i'm just gonna have to go back to my old ways and stay home isolated from everyone : ( P.S if you read this and im sure you will this is my only showing of kindness towards you.

Esmarlin(for a while) out!!! : (

Virgina

(sigh) Virgina.... wow its been seven months since i left Virgina and i must say it is depressing.For those who don't know me and Darla went to Virgina for the summer and i have to say it was THE BEST SUMMER EVER!! im still not over the fact that were not there anymore i just finished reading her posts about it.... (sniff sniff) theres just so many memories that it makes me wanna go back in time and just experience it all over but sadly theres no such thing as time machines and I'm in the present and I'm just gonna have to forget about the past ughhh i really hate Worcester right now its such a shitty place im mean were my aunt lived it was the poop because she was living in a uber rich neighborhood and the place was just so proper. we would always have food and go out and sometimes go to the movies but Mann here its just like same old same old we cant be outside at night without having pervs calling at ya and the streets here are just so dirty and sick!! but in Virgina it wasn't like that the neighborhoods were quiet peaceful and safe. and did i forget to mention how we lived in a double Decker house. it had a patio 3 living rooms 2 bathrooms 6 CPU and 4 bedrooms it was lavished in jewels and they had there own butler!(well i went a little over board with the butler and jewels but you get what i mean) the place was nice. we wouldn't have to worry about starving cuz we would either have a full stocked fridge or go eat take out.theres so many memories i would like to share with you guys but its just too long... well thats for another day ; )

Esmarlin out!!! ; )

New Years

Waddya know its new years yay!!(not) ugh my new years is the worst rite now. im just home babysitting listening to music and talking to Darla rite now wishing we could go back to our fav year. you know i dont get why people always say this "new year new me" i mean really whats the difference its just a new year why change yourself?but then again maybe its for the better.i seriously think this year is gunna be so boring just like the last. (sigh) well i guess i should make my new years rez list. so here goes 1.Lose at least 10 pounds 2.Grow my hair out 3.Buy wii fit 4.Pass this year 5.get a job Yup i guess those are it. yeah i know not really interesting rite well thats my life for ya dull and not exciting at all-_- but hey im still happy with it tho so dont go thinking im depressed or any mumbo jumbo.Anyways u know what really grinds my gears...When people interupt me when im talking lol it really irritates me. Man im like wanting to be sweept off my feet by a celeb(Joe jonas) so badly that i keep talking about it with darla and i think its sorta annoying her lol but i dont care im just making convo with her.HaHa me and darla just got off the tele with jeffar and we wishined him a happy new year and stuff. but you know what im hating new years rite now and i dont even know why.so im thinking that if i stay single and work on me this year that i'll probably be more happy and focus : ) Wowza darla just quoted RuPual saying "if you cant love ur self how the hell are you gunna love somebody else" and that is so true lol i think that this year will probably be more interesting then last after all.

Esmarlin out!!! ; )

Not My Day

hmmm okay so its been 5 days since i last blogged and i'm very upset about that : ( but i'm here now so lets get to the good stuff; ) Well today was so not my day because i had THE worst hair day and it was all because of my freaking hood. yes i know what you all are wondering "what does a hood have to do with ur hair?" well this morning i got up as usual and did my hair and started walking to my bus stop...well little did i know it was like zero below this morning and windy as hell.so as i'm walking i bump into my bf crystal and we talked while we walked so when i'm with her the wind for some reason decided to go crazy and blow in our faces-_- ... (this was not amusing) so as the wind hit my face it felt like an electric jolt and the only thing i can do was flip my hood on.When i put it on i felt a few strands of my hair go forward as i flipped my hood on.I was thinking to myself and "Damnit this is going to be hard to fix without a brush" (not that i have bad hair or anything) as the bus approached i was just focused on fixing my hair.I walked into the bus and sat down,i take off my hood and as soon as i did that i felt my hair just stay in one place and it seemed horrible because i'm already thinking that its bad. i tried to do what i can with it before we got to school.I get to school and went straight for the bathroom and guess what? it was miserably out of place."GREAT" was all i could say so if my day couldn't get any worse i walk into my fav class (for those of you who don't know its drama) and saw my best bud Jeff. went up to him gave him a hug then saw Darlene and we talked and stuff.so as class got started Mr. savage started off by talking about everybody's performance(i didnt go on friday because it was just creepy for me to hear the teacher say he loves me blech) so since i have such short attention span me,Jeff and Darla start fooling around.As i'm talking Mr. savage interups me and told me some news and it was that he was going to ask me not to do my diolouge with him.....WTF!!! i skipped class and went throught hell that day just so i wouldnt have to face him on stage and after all that i didnt have to do it ughhh god just kill me now i thought.Man i really wished i went to the performance that day but oh well things happen...At lunch i was just trying to block that out of my mind and talk about something else. so my day couldn't get any worse because i realized why i was having such a bad day...-_- it was because i had my bad luck shirt on...ugh i was just appalled that every time i wore this shirt bad things would happen to me. so far it has happened two times. so to cut this little story short i just had a really bad day today...oh and did i mention that at the end of the day my shirt was filled with pencil marks PENCIL MARKS! god it was not my day today : (

Esmarlin out!!! : (

Big Night

Hey peeps its ez-MAR-lene and today is a very special day because I'm acting on Broadway!!!! jk jk no but really I'm doing a performance in school and for some reason I'm not nervous which is really weird lol so yea rite now I'm at Andrea's house and were all getting ready to go to the big show and darlannes taking a shower while me and Andrea talk some junk about her just kidding i luv that bitch!!! as well as Andrea so yea I'm gonna tell you guyz a Lil bit about my scene that I'm acting so mine is about some girl named Mia and shes secretly in love with this boxer dude named Alex but she doesn't want him to know because shes marrying this other guy moody(i Noe ugly ass name) so yup that's Wat its about but sadly today my partner Jeff showed up really sick in school : ( i was so sad but then Jeff was a champ cuz he tried his hardest even though his voice sounded like shit i gave him props for that so as the day went on we mostly spent it in drama class i was so happy that we did this cuz it got me out of a test ; ) ugh so now we just called Jeff and sadly hes not coming so now our romantic filled scene is gonna be really freaky and creepy cuz I'm gonna have to do it with hairy old Mr savage belch now I'm just not gonna go cuz that just ruined my day ugh i really wish that Jeff wasn't sick today i thought ours was going to be really good and special but not anymore....i so hate this day : (

Esmarlin out!!! : (

TERI - BULL

Hey bloggers you already who this be and i know its been a while since i last blooged and i thought i just hit the site and write a few things. Ok so my day started out fine and i was in a super freindly mood(which i never am in) i had a nice outfit on and i was just having a good in all my classes. Then i got to my favorite class which is drama(pshh i know what everyones thinking drama geek!) i walk into the auditorium and i saw my two besties Jeff (aka Jeffar) and Darlanne(aka Darla) i was so excited i just ran up to Jeffar all dirty dancing with it and jump on him then me Darla just did our little secret thing which is so top secret i can even say ; ) lol so as we get settled in class Darla just happened to say the most stupidest thing about some kid that i like in that class and he was looking right at her and she didn't notice at the time so he kinda caught that which was really embarrassing : p ugh i hate it when she does that but any who so as class went about me and my besties just went back to our own little side and hung out there until Jeffar had to go back to his physics class to had in some papers or whatnot and me and Darla just sat and said a few funny jokes when the kid that im so smitten about walks in and it just becomes so awkward because we were just texting him and i mean we were just fooling around and sending him little things about me and him but it was so awkward that i just had to walk away,but sadly i couldn't because darla just threatened the crap out of me if i left and it was just so funny that my knees went weak and i fell to the floor. so when he was gone coincidently our other bestie comes back and we all just hung out the rest of the period. so now its lunch time and me and darla are in line and we just so happen to be talking about the kid i like when out of no were he walks by and Darla(that stupid fool) just stood there looking at him like she was a creep and he caught her -_-... I WANTED TO DIE!! she always makes us look like creeps! it was just so terrible but that wasn't the only thing. so when the last bell rings we see him and me i just freaked out and practically ran to the office so i saw the phone picked it up and acted like i was calling someone(i know nice excuse ; ) so while i'm "on the phone" darla just freaking came up and was talking all monotoned and said"hey umm hes waiting for you aren't you gunna got to him?" she just put me on blast and i just wanted to hit her with the phone and crack her skull or something ugh too bad i was still in school so i stayed after school with Jeffar and practiced our lines for drama and that was just an awkward thing for me for some reason i still don't know why? so when me and jeffar finish were calling our rides and sadly WE HAD NO ONE-_- so i finally took in the fact that i had to walk. i figured hey at least i'm walking with someone and not alone : ) so as me and Jeff got to the top of the hill we stopped and talked to ms margera for a few while i used Jeff's phone as i'm using the phone all of a sudden i hear Jeff say "oh can i get my phone i got a ride from coach" i'm like coach? so i ran up to the drivers window and saw that it was Mr. Boyle my history teacher.in my head i'm like great this teacher has no problem with me i'm so gunna get a ride! but little did i know hes so not cool with girls in his car and i looked like a freaking dummy just begging and they drove away and did i mention the big smile my so called bestie had on his face i was just shocked and appalled to think that my newly found bestie would do such a thing-_- since i had no way home i just walked in the freezing cold with just a thin little jacket and sweater ughh today just ended so terrible and so i leave my fellow bloggers to vote was it a bad day or no?? thats all for now cuz im boughts to eat some mickey ds!!(i know im fat) lmfao!

Esmarlin out!!! ; )